October 28, 2008 (Tuesday)

I came across old livejournal yesterday only to realize how I desperately needed a new one. I've left that part of my life behind and I want to keep future memories separate & untarnished. Seriously, it was so depressing and ridiculous (go read it yourself- http://greenteaa.livejournal.com) i can't get over it.

this is for the new things to remember, a normal life and new friends. you're only eighteen once, afterall.

So today was my second day at Whole Foods. It was fine minus the people I had to train with.
Something important I was reminded today:
1. As bad as i think things are, they can always get worse
2. Wear a condom.
3. Gross old men will always be gross old men, even in a "professional" environment

It's nice to start a new job and start over. I also am starting my internship this week with a local designer (Sarah Acker). She's worked under Alexander Wang and Anna Sui, being 2nd head designers for both. She's only 25 and she moved back to Charleston to open her own line and store. I'm helping her from the beginning, so hopefully it means a lot of good things to come.

My whole life has completely changed within the last 11 months. Socially, mentally, physically, financially. My life "plan" that I've always had kind of mapped out in my head is shot to hell. I now only have the glorious options of staying in state, or going out of state and being in debt for 20 years after i get out of school. I am terrified of never leaving charleston, and getting sucked further and further into it. Apart of me wishes I didn't have all the friends I do, because when you don't like your home like i used to, it's easy to get out and not look back. It would have been good for me.

I know deep down i will get out sooner or later. I was supposed to go to New York City this weekend and honestly not going make me mentally and physically sick. I live here, but in my heart I consider it my home. it sounds cheesy, but I literally ache for it when I'm away. I love charleston, but it's not the same.

This weekend is a big weekend. We've got a huge halloween party. I'm going to just be Eloise again i think, i don't really have money to spend on a costume. A few days after that is Japanther. So nerve-wrecking, I can't even talk about it.

I'm exhausted. School tomorrow, work, then meeting up with Brian so we can talk about the Japanther show on C of C radio. Make sure to listen out!

Loves,
-m