Friday, August 28, 2009

"i died"

i have three (3) charcoal sketches due tomorrow. Started at 6 during class, I just finished. it's currently 2:18 AM. deathhhh
35 hours of work + 15 hours of cofc + intern on sundays= a complete haze.
there hasn't been alcohol in my system since sunday. what? missing so many people right now.

Anyway, a few things i am excited about:
1. the mountain goats, decemberists, and band of horses tickets purchased!
2. alex/alex/tillye move out!!!
3. The Brisbones + Co in Columbia Saturday! long overdue for a miniroadtrip with the boys. excited to see & hang out with columbia people especially deborahhh my loveee
4. Crowfield in columbia also on saturday @ the White Mule. I told tyler he was going to see Co even if i have to drag him off the stage by his beard. it's true
5. my vintage shop, ansonborough square, via etsy.
8. i'm excited for kris. =)
9. moving in with ms dolan in january! lease is signed! hellooo cannon st.

yesterday, tyler heard "leslie ann levine" by the decemeberists for the first time. He doesn't know who the mountain goats are. now i have to make him a mix cd. How do you expand the music of the lead singer of a band like Crowfield? ugh. any tips?

Friday, May 1, 2009

It was then the fox appeared.

"Good morning," said the fox.
"Good morning," said the little prince, "Come and play with me, I'm feeling so sad."
"I can't play with you," the fox said. "I'm not tamed."
"What does tamed mean?" asked the little prince.
"It's something that's been too often neglected. It means 'to create ties'..."
"To create ties?"
"That's right," the fox said. "For me you're only a little boy just like a thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you have no need of me, either. For you I'm only a fox like a thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, we'll need eachother. You'll be the only boy in the world for me and I'll be the only fox in the world for you...
"Nothing's perfect," the fox sighed. "But if you tame me, my life will be filled with sunshine. I will know the sound of your footsteps that will be different from the rest. Yours will call me out of my burrow like music. And then, look! You see the wheat fields over there? I do not eat bread. For me wheat is useless. Wheat fields say nothing to me. Which is sad. But you have hair the color of gold. So it will be wonderful, once you've tamed me! The wheat, which is golden, will remind me of you. And I'll love the sound of the wind in the wheat..."
The fox fell silent and stared at the little price for a long time. "Please...tame me!" he said.
"I'd like to," the little prince replied, "but I haven't much time. I have friends to find and so many things to learn."
"The only things you learn are the things you tame," said the fox. "If you want a friend, tame me!"
"What do I have to do?" asked the little prince.
"You'll have to be very patient," the fox answered.

And that was how the little prince tamed the fox. And when the time to leave was near:
"Ah!" the fox said. "I shall weep."
"It's your own fault," the little prince said. "I never wanted to do you any harm, but you insisted that I tame you..."
"Yes, of course," the fox said.
"But you're going to weep!" said the little prince.
"Yes, of course," the fox said.
"Then you get nothing out of it?"
"I get something," the fox said, "because of the color of the wheat."
Then the fox added, "Go look at the roses again. You'll understand that yours is the only rose in all the world. Then come back to say goodbye, and I'll make you the gift of a secret."

The little prince went back to look at the roses again.
"You're not at all like my rose, you're nothing at all yet," he told them. "No one has tamed you and you haven't tamed anyone. You're lovely, but you're empty. My rose, on her own, is more important than all of you together, since she's the one I've watered, since she's the one I put under glass. Since she's the one I sheltered behind a screen. Since she's the one for who I killed the caterpillars, since she's the one I listened to when she complained, or when she boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing at all. Since she's my rose."

And he went back to the fox.
"Good-bye," he said.
"Good-bye," said the fox.
"Here is my secret, it's quite simple: One sees clearly only with the heart, anything essential is invisible to the eyes. It's the time you spent on your rose that makes your rose so important. People have forgotten the truth, but you must'n forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You're responsible for your rose..."

Thursday, April 16, 2009

feed yourself with inspiration from your founding fathers

Today was the tea party at the Custom's House on Easy Bay Street with about 6,000 people.

This is NOT going to be a political rant because i am currently watching MSNBC, which i like to watch and count how many times the reporters divide the country into two by referring to the "right wing conservatives" as "they", when WE are actually ONE country, and as of now, i've lost count.

So, I'll let Thomas Jefferson do my talking for me:
"Democracy will cease to exist when you take away from those who are willing to work and give it to those who are not."

"A government big enough to give you everything you want, is strong enough to take away everything you have."

"When the people fear the government, there is tyranny. When the government fears the people, there is liberty."

"Never spend your money, before you have earned it."

Homeland security makes me laugh, please read this for some halarity.
by the way, i believe in the constitution, so i guess i'm a threat to homeland security?

Monday, April 13, 2009

for he has risen

i started this blog NOT for my cynical rantings (which happens to inhibit most of it anyway), but to record my current life, so i can read them when i'm old. so bare with me, i'm going to re-capture the last few days:

Last Sunday was Brunch at AC's. I originally went to see my sister, but of course she was leaving as I was arriving. her friends were there though, celebrating adam's birthday. it was a nice mix of people i never see, and of people i see all the time.
Lots of van gogh shots were bought and recieved, and i really have no idea how I stayed out there for so long. I realized eventually that I had to get out of there around 8, so i went to see some friends at d'allessandro's for a change of scenery. eventually went home- but don't remember doing so...(which is neither cool or typical of me.)

I tried to justify myself at AC's all day sunday for the fact that spring break started monday and i didn't have to work either. I layed around all day and let the sun and fresh air soak up my grossness from the day before.

at some last week, ent to Juanita's with amanda & erin, april & eliza came and we drank probably 5 pitchers before leaving and stumbling to ac's. ended up hanging out with tyler, javier, and lucas too which was nice. oh and i fell in love that night...not really

thursday i attempted to meet jesse at ac's so we could "talk", but i got off work so late and ac's was packed so talking about anything remotely important just wasn't going to happen. so instead, we drank, and talked about twilight/edward cullen/the decemberists/nothing important. saw and hung out with some friends for a while but became over the whole thing quickly, and left.

didn't do much except work until this weekend, when I went with Co + Jenna + Maggie to the Blue Roots Music Festival in this little town called Fountain Inn, SC outside of Greenville. I drove up with maggie, & am so glad i did. The weather was awesome, but i was totally unprepared/stupid and wore a dress with no tights.
Highlights of the trip:
drinking whiskey in the walmart parking lot while waiting for kelly
me & matt's 2 dollar mini bottles
seeing brian walk around in a snuggie, even if only for a few minutes (seriously, this made the whole trip worth it)
this aboslutely ridiculously scary man-made "out-house" with jenna
Co. & how amazing they were with the sound reflecting through the trees & the between the hills
maggie and i's cracker and nutella snacks
no humidity!!!!!!!!!!

brian and i woke up at 5:45 and never went back to sleep, & decided to drive back at 7, we had to make a side trip to spartanburg and drop off a friend of kelly & brian's.
I don't know if it was the sleeping in the car, or the combination of whiskey, wine, and beer, or living off of luna bars, fruit leather, and crackers for 48 hours but i felt absolutely terrible the next morning. never have i ever had such a bad hangover. the drive back was rough at first, but i got some coffee and ate a really big apple & some gingerale and i was set. but i would not have made it if maggie hadn't of been there. girl was a lifesaver.
On easter, i came home at 11 or so, put on my swimsuit, passed out in the sun until 5. woke up, showered, attempted to eat easter dinner but didn't succeed, and fell back asleep at 7ish. i think i was awake for a total of 3 hours while iwas home, but i was exhausted from a lot of fun.

Today was not exciting, tomorrow will be sad. i am tired, more for that then.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Mais les yeux sont aveugles. Il faut chercher avec le cœur.

je lis "le petit prince". pour l'instant, c'est mon livre préféré.

i'm currently on spring break, but i don't feel like it. i've been working a lot in order to pay off that prom dress, but for the next three days i'm taking a much needed "mental health" break.

the last few nights were fun. been pretty good at staying away from AC's which i've been trying to do. I've been hanging out with my sister a lot and doing fun little things like cooking and watching gossip girl and twilight and being stupid with our crackberries and running errands.

i did go out last night, however. i went to kaitlyn's house and hung out with her, kymi, alex borgen, nick, and some others, waiting on javier to come back over with tyler but he never did so i went to columbus. brought over my blue moon that corner store now carries because i asked them to (no, seriously. i can't believe they did it either) and hung out with brian/alex/jenna/allen & jack daniels. brian and jenna were about to pass out so alex and i dropped allen off at home and met up with alex, lindsey & tillye at allison & rj's which was good because i hadn't even been to their house yet and i live across the street from them. i had a major headache all night, but decided to stay out until 4AM anyway.

oh, and the bridge run traffic was almost the death of me today. seriously.

i've been kind of not feeling the social circle lately. tonight christie and i watched twilight and got indian food.

i plan to lay in the sun for the next 72 hours. what do you think about that?

oh, and:
Currently Political Ranting: Take 2
New York Times majorly pissed me off today. Yes, mark sanford doesn't want to take or be apart of the bailout. do you know that he wanted to take the money and use it towards South Carolina's massive DEBT that we have, but OBAMA SAID NO. Dear Obama, W-T-F. Using this money is going to worsen our economy and devalue the dollar since we're off of the gold standard and the dollar is now only technically backed by value ideas and paper.
Here's something the New York Times DIDN'T tell you:
So, basically, Obama really wants to force Sanford to take the bailout money (even though he can't use it towards the state debt). However, it's COMPLETELY unconstitutional & even he knows better. So he's using this big front page article of the New York Times to give Sanford a bunch of shit and scare him into taking the bailout money since he can't force him himself.
yayy, we have a big bully for a president.
we have such a cool governor, guys. even if you don't agree with his policies i hope you can appreciate the fact that he's one of the few people left that's actually a true conservative and wants the government to remain as small as possible.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

oh comely, i will be with you when you lose your breath

i am infinitely tired and i feel like i never sleep anymore. this blog is only proof of it.

the last few days have been a desperate attempt to find a phone and get schoolwork finished before spring break starts, all the while working 40 hours a week and interning on the weekends. i'm finally getting a new phone tomorrow, supposedly though.

so was this weekend. i didn't have school friday, so the drinking started thursday night. I met up with Alice, my friend who goes to Brown who is from charleston & visiting for spring break, and we went to AC's and met up with alex & april, & some friends of alice's from RISD. drank, worried, & used up all of our disposable cameras & claiming them the "new polaroid", became too exhausted after singing & dancing our hearts out to "tiny dancer". literally parked a car, opened the doors, jumped out, and danced in the middle of the street at a stoplight on the corner of st. philip & thomas...
all in all, i had fun, but i'm glad everyone is alive (ahem, those who drink at juanita's for 8 hours previous to going to AC's)

friday i recovered, and so did everyone else it seemed like. Saturday i ended up hanging out at columbus street for a while, which was really fun because it wasn't a bunch of strangers, it was just alex b., jenna, jm, nora, preston, christen, philip, lindsey, tillye, will, matt, warren javs, tyler & me drinking a lot of shitty beer and eating whatever goodness lindsey created for us. we played music and rolled cigarettes. i was there for almost 5 hours before i almost passed out on preston's shoulder, and decided it was time to go home.

now i am doing a lot of school work before spring break on friday, which my brain and body desperately need. i need to catch up on sleep. i can't wait to go to the beach.

Friday, March 27, 2009

& I won't try to fight in the weekends

let's re-cap from last weekend, shall we?

friday was a constant struggle to get everything in order for Austin Crane/ Co/ The Mountain Yellers/ Here We Go, Boys! at Tay's House on Friday. not having a cell phone makes life 80 times harder. I felt so bad because austin kept trying to get ahold of me and there was nothing i could do.
eventually, i Met up with Austin before the show at Tay's, hung out there for a little while. Left to go to Dave's new house downtown, which is pretty adorable, whined with Dave about how stupid people are and our drug dealing neighbors, ect. Got a call from Brian who said Austin was about to start, so i left and made it there just in time. Austin was awesome, but it was a quiet acoustic set and there were these fuckers there that were burping when he was playing...seriously guys?

Walked out before the set ended to smoke and almost died from the amount of people I saw. Little did i know that later, there would probably be around 200 people there. If this was a venue, I would totally be down for that, because that's a lot of money for the bands. But the thing is, 70% of the people there just came to party, didn't donate, and didn't give a fuck that someone was being very hospitable and opening their place to us to hear music. All these kids ended up coming and it was just awkward. but the music was good nonetheless.

On a good note, Co played so well. I want to say I couldn't believe it, but yes I can. It was a full band, but they were unplugged and played acoustic. Brian played banjo and it was perfect. Jenna and TJ played, by themselves, and they both did so well I'm so proud of them.

I ended up having an awkward hour long conversation after Co ended, getting kind of upset and fed up with all the random people there/ not being able to breathe, so i went to meet alex and amanda at AC's. had this huge wooden plank fall onto my head... took way too many shots in order to erase the night. it didn't work.

that night made me sick of everything really fast. so fast that i've been hardcore looking into moving to portland for the summer. so we'll see.

true and i are going to prom. Hello Dress?

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Dear Obama, Why are you Bitching?

During the week I can't help but feel like a robot, programmed for school & work only. It's not fun.

You know what else isn't fun? The government. Here's my two-cents of what's going on:
First, a short re-cap: AGI was given 180? billionish in the stimulus package. It has spent the money on employee and executive bonuses that are required to be payed...because of the damn stimulus bill.

Dear Obama, Why are you bitching about the bonuses being payed, when YOUR stimulus bill says: "shall not be construed to prohibit any bonus payment required to be paid pursuant to a written employment contract executed on or before February 11, 2009." -Click for the article at

Why is everyone mad at the people at AIG when they're the ones following the rules? And it's funny that Congress is bitching, because guess who made those rules?

people are slowing starting to realize that someone in the government wrote this part of the Stimulus Bill that makes these contracts/bonuses didn't just appear.

If the stimulus bill wasn't around, AIG would have shortly run out of money & would have had to file Chapter 11 in order to avoid filing Chapter 7 (bankruptcy). Unless it gets to either of these points, everyone must abide by the company's contract. If the government would have stopped interfering, AIG would have filed Chapter 11, and would have been able to renegotiate contracts, and this "bonus problem" wouldn't exist.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

why do you let me stay here?

Sometimes, i put myself in my place. Last night was one of those occasions.
Around seven thirty, I went with my sister to her husband Jesse's art showing at a photography gallery in West Ashley. He's the one who has successfully gotten me to read my first (and probably only) series of comic books- Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. No...seriously. See?


Scott Pilgrim is a 23-year-old guy living in the big city with his gay roommate, just trying to make his way in this crazy world.Scott Pilgrim likes the new girl in town, Ramona Flowers, but to win her heart, he has to defeat her seven evil ex-boyfriends. Wait, what?

Scott Pilgrim is a critically acclaimed, award-winning series of graphic novels by Canadian cartoonist Bryan Lee O'Malley. VOLUME 5 is released FEBRUARY 2009. There will be six volumes in all. They are published by Oni Press and released approximately once per year. (Ages 13 and up!)


It's being turned into a movie with Michael Cera. Don't believe me? Go ahead, google it.

Oh..and Jesse does comic book style art. It's awesome, however you want to describe it.

My favorite of his:

Supposedly the above picture is my sister, PS.

Amanda ended up coming to the art show too, drank some free Sweetwater Beer & wine, tried to explain to my sister what a camel crush was, had multiple conversations about how much the ryan adams show SUCKED.

My sister and her friends went to the Tin Roof, and Amanda and I went to Columbus St. to see Small Pox/Oicho Kabu/Real Estate/Mi Ami play. I was so thankful we made it just intime for Real Estate...I've been listening to them quite a bit for a while now. Go Listen!

Click Here to Listen to Real Estate!

The show was fantastic, they played extremely well. and the drummer was incredible especially.

After Real Estate played, i had a conversation about how good they were with someone. I don't remember who. But it made me realize that we always go to these shows, knowing we're going to see some decent band, and sometimes they're good and sometimes they're really good. but you never think that eventually maybe some of these scruff twenty-somethings are going to me amazing a blow me away. But it happened. thank you real estate.

Don't get me wrong, Mi Ami played next and was amazing as well. I didn't catch all of it, becuase I was too busy chasing vodka with vodka. Dave thought it was a good idea to put vodka in his beer bottle- so when I reached for his beer as a chaser to the shot of vodka, i had no idea what was going on. imagine my face. It never registered with me what I was doing, so I KEPT chasing- and then realized i took about five shots of straight vodka.

Needless to say the rest of the night was just stumbling around and talking. Met the guys in Real Estate, they gave me a CD, which i'm so happy about. Went to Hanover street for a little while to say bye to paris and dave, ran into some random girl from my my french class last semester, was recorded by JM talking about the government with Alex Ballenger. Went back to Alex/Brian/Tj/Jenna's, hung out with Philip and Allison Kendra and finished what was left of alex's firefly, and passed the fuck out on his couch.

I was put in my place WHEN, this morning, I woke up and felt like I got runover by a truck. I never ever get hangovers, but then again, I don't normally get obliterated either. Naseau? Check. Migrane? check. Inappropriate Pictures from Eliza (of someone else) on my phone? Double Check.

Thank God I took Sundays off at work. Somehow I managed to shower and have a Sunday Funday with carly, alex & mike. We've been talking about getting oysters for a while, so they picked me up, we went to mt. pleasant seafood, got a bushel of oysters and roasted them on isle of palms at carly's parents shop.

Now I have to do all the school work I missed this week. eeek.

Someone buy this for me?:

Saturday, March 14, 2009

the only moment we were alone

Last night was a mixture of annoyances and 20 minute intervals and different locations. I waited a while to go out, I should have gone to Santi's but I never got my shit together or bothered to call Alex back. So at like midnight I stumbled over to Fishburne to Warren's new house, literally walked in, saw some people and gave some hugs, and walked out.
A bunch of people piled in my car....more than I wanted. Emily, Amanda, Brandon, Adam, Alex and I all drove to AC's laughing our asses off at emily and brandon the whole way, my face was seriously hurting and i think i lost part of my voice just from that.
We got to AC's and thank heavens I know Ryan as well as I do, because there was a line out the door. And brandon forgot his ID in Amanda's car, so we had to figure out what to do. After about 20 minutes of coming in and out, we finally left, Alex Carly and Emily went to AC's and brandon and I went to get his keys. Went to Upper Deck for a little while, ran into Javier and Tyler, went to KTO's, ran into everyone else I hadn't seen all night there. Stayed for a total of 20 minutes, and then left.
Made the smart decision of giving my keys to Amanda by accident. Heard some stupid rumor that I'm telling people to stay away from Columbus street...(hmmmmm).

I woke up late for the first time in so long today, it was nice. I'm going to go do the things I never normally have time to do- clean my room, grocery shopping, watch gossip girl with my sister, go down king street.

Tonight is the art show at Scoop with my brother in law, Jesse and his friend Ryan. It's sponsored by sweet water so that's enough for me.

Hopefully sometime in between now and then my phone might decide to work. It worked for like ten minutes this morning, but usually that's all I get the whole day so I don't think that's a good sign.

Oh well.

Thursday, March 12, 2009


i'll find any excuse to not write this damn paper.

dear mr. adams,

I expected more from you.

So tonight alex and I went to see ryan adams at the performing arts center. My sister originally bought the tickets, but she ended up not being able to go at the last minute, so alex took her spot. Her friends parker & robbie had the other two tickets next to us.
the show was good, but different than what i expected. it was shorter than last time, unpersonal, and he went right into his popular songs. last was the complete opposite.
but i don't think it's really his fault. I mean, the crowd sucked. you know how theres always that one drunk bitch? well, there were two. standing up the whole time, directly in front of us. I threw some pennys at them. and this poor old-ish guy who was definately the most awkward dancer i've ever seen. parker and i kept on trying to mimic his moves, but we just couldn't.
Could have been better, definately could have been worse.

Yesterday (Tuesday) night was really fun. I went to 255 and saw Paul Baribeau's cover band of Bruce Springsteen. Tay's is always a good time, but nothing really compares screaming Dancing in the Dark/Born to Run while downing a couple of Blue Moons with your bffs. Definetly a night for the books, its one of my favorites in Charleston so far. and i've had so many good ones, too.

This weekend will be exciting. KTO's friday, columbus street saturday...i'm just hoping it's not swarmed with those damned kids that it has been lately...
Columbus st used to be a get away, a really low-key party, shit we just did when we were bored. we wanted to throw a party, have a show, we did it there because it was convient. everyone lived down the street, on the street, or across the street. now it's this "thing". i don't really get it. it's no longer endearing, and i'm afraid it's losing it's charm.

don't they know, they're spoiling it? and it's not cute.
hopefully i'm mistaken.i'm pretty sure i'm not. i guess we'll see.